Negativity

     So overall our life is good right now. Really I feel like I shouldn't complain and that maybe I should just stay positive because of all the good but you know I am human. So that being said currently I am feeling rather negative. Trouble with friends, trouble with home appliances and trouble with my hubby have made this a rough week. The broken washing machine sucks but it is not the end of the world because we still have our old apartment sized one and it works so yes I am grateful that we can still do laundry but when you have a household of 5 ... having a larger capacity washing machine is nice. The thing with the friends will work itself out one way or another in the end. It is just hard knowing that your friends are hurting and it sucks that sometimes the fact that they are hurting leads them to hurting you. Friendships are hard sometimes and it is  hard not knowing if things can be repaired between friends. Only time will tell. Now onto the trouble with J. It basically was resolved as quickly as it happened but I think the reason we were having an issue was because he was not impressed with the friend trouble and it had him upset so we were talking and he had raised his voice and was talking with his hands and so I thought he was mad at me which of course upset me. So I asked why he was mad with me and then he said he wasn't and why did I always think that he was mad at me. Seriously things just kind of snowballed from there and ended with me bawling. Yes I have been a bit of a crybaby this week. Oh well apologies were said and things are a bit better now but it is fair to say emotionally I remain a bit of a mess. Marriage is another thing that is hard.
     Stress is not a friend of mine and as many of you know I am a bit of a worrier which causes stress. Uuuggghhh! Anyway recently a relative of J's was diagnosed with diabetes which of course prompted J to get his butt to the doctor. His appointment went well and the doctor was very positive and figures that J is fine but of course sent him for some blood work anyway just to make sure. He was supposed to go on Monday but he kind of messed up his fasting by eating breakfast without even thinking about it. Seriously we had to laugh about that. He is definitely a creature of habit. Anyway since he had today off and he remembered to not eat breakfast he actually made it in for the blood work. They took blood and then made him stick around and do the nasty sugar filled drink and then took more blood. I really hope he will be just fine but needless to say this is definitely something that worries me a lot. This has been an especially difficult year and it would be nice if it would start feeling a bit easier sometime soon.